What do you Do, or Say when someone is in a Abusive Relationship?

Unfortunately, I have experienced the worst.

If there aren't any children involved, it's easier to leave an Abusive Relationship..

Not living together is always a plus..We will talk about that later.

It's harder to listen to anyone else, when you're dealing with a children.. you still have your hopes, and your dreams..

It's easier to view from the outside clearly seeing that something is sickening about the relationship. Being on the inside, you realize that you're dealing with a sociopath type predator, who has multiple personalities.. 

Everything would be cool and quiet for Months, until all of a Sudden.. Everything is wrong.. This is scary.. Because this person has earned all of your trust, and has done nothing to lead you to believe that they're absolutely CRAZY. You will look them in their eyes, after they've done something you don't understand.. and their response is normal.. 

This becomes normal in the eyes of the Victim over time.. Because nine times out of ten, it's a series of isolated situations.. Like a secret.. 

No one is supposed to know.. 

I knew exactly what was going on... and no matter what happened.. I'd go back.. it was a living nightmare.. and every time I went back it was ten times worse than it was before.. 

I wished I had never gone back.. I'd pack everything, and then leave... and when his mood became stabilized, I was fooled.. 

I hated it.. I wished, and hoped, and Prayed.. and there was no way out.. 

Hell on Earth, 

I waking hell, and there were no breaks.. I wanted to get out.. I wanted peace, and happiness..

I never got it.. I would wait til I was near death, and still wouldn't budge.. 

But that was because, of my Children... 

If I didn't have Children.. I would have been sooo far gone.. 

It was new, I was surprised, and I couldn't believe it was me. 

So this is what I would say to the ABUSED.

Listen to me, I don't care if you DON'T LISTEN to ANYBODY else in your LIFE!.. Your Mom, Dad, Sister, Brother, Best Friend... WHOEVER!

I can tell you from 8 years of Experience.. It NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER!   Gets BETTER.. and...I'm  %1,000,000 times %1,000,000 percent SURE....PRAY,

WISH, HOPE, Go to Church... Whatever you wanna do..

Who wants to Argue for HOURS? Who said that was NORMAL?

Who wants to get locked out of their OWN House?

Who wants to look for their OWN car that's been hidden from them?

Robbed blind, hit on or spit on?

Hey, I know you damn sure don't? Who wants to be micro managed? You can't even hang out when you want to, and you had more freedom when you were living with your Parents.. 

Having your personal valuable belongings destroyed, because he was Angry...

What's wrong with being by yourself? You can't hurt yourself? Does the thought of being alone feel so agonizing, that you'd rather be punished for no reason?

Like a child? Yet you would never hurt your own flesh and blood, the way that you're being hurt.. 

Emotionally? Where are you now? Spontaneous depression? Are you worried?

How about the thought of freedom from your own emotional termoil? 

You are going to feel the effects of what you have experienced, but not forever..

You won't forget, but that's just it.. You kept forgetting.. Why you left him in the first place..

You need a reminder.. 

Square one, What type of person am I attracted to?

I'm constantly making mistakes because I'm overlooking the type of guy that I am naturally attracted to.. My physical body is attracted to the wrong type of guy EVERY TIME! So how should I respond to this? How am I to about life?

I'm attracted to guys who AREN'T ATTRACTIVE..  Because of how their minds work, their body's aren't going to match.. at all.. 
My physical body is shallow.. But my Spiritual Body is attracted to the type of guy I wouldn't even look at twice.. So what am I supposed to do? 

Take my time.. I'm thinking.. I'm stimulated by the thought patterns of individuals I come into contact with. The deeper they go, the more intrigued.. but see these guys don't have the confidence that I am seeking.. But that's okay, because I have enough confidence for the both of us.. 
I don't need all the good looks.. because with the good looks comes a damaged mind.. 

I don't need that, I need a clear mind that is willing to learn new things. These guys are open to knowledge, and they're learning one their own. They aren't forcing me to do anything that I don't want to do, because they actually care about my thoughts, and feelings. This is what I want, I need this in my life. I can't go on ignoring things that I'm doing that are hurting me..
I can't force relationships on myself that aren't happening in the first place... 

I'm destroying my life by choosing what I feel should be the right match, ignoring what the right match actually is.. It's scary..
I need to start caring about me more.. and put myself in healthier situations, and stop ignoring what my spirit tells me.. 

I could have had the perfect match right in my hands.. and ignoring him because I'm chasing after something, or someone that isn't even near my type in the first place.. I need to get real.. With me.. I can't get mad at someone else.. when I'm being deceitful of my own thoughts and overlooking signs, and issues that I should have never overlooked.. That's crazy.. 

I've already met my match.. I need to reflect upon that.. 

Relationship Mistake.. YOU'RE FIRED

I am remain guilty of making the same relationship mistakes over, and over, and over again. 
I have no one to blame but me.. My mind will tell me..(Take your TIME) My body will tell me TAKE YOUR TIME.. 

Yet I ignore this, and I move forward in the ignorance as if it were bliss.. Ignorance is not bliss.. Ignorance is an awakening.. Because after you've engaged yourself in a sexual situation that wasn't really earned.. I'd like to say.. Or isn't necessary, you will feel empty inside.. Because then you have everything else to think about.. Like why aren't I FEELING anything now?

I find myself Wandering in my mind, only to discover this.. Sex is wrong in the beginning.. 
That should be the very last thing that you should be doing, if you're trying to get to know someone.. If that person is truly right for you, everything else should be equally stimulating.. 
If that person cannot hold a conversation without jumping into some physical action.. Almost instantaneously without any verbal stimulation... then something is definitely wrong.. 

I had a date with this guy, and I mentioned my blog.. his response was, it's cool..  What? It's cool?
WTF is that? That's not even a complete thought.. Not for me.. I'm much more complex than that.. 

It's cool? What's so cool about it.. Did this fool even READ my BLOG? It's almost as if I could predict what he would say next.. Uh it's interesting that you talk about such things.. Basically saying anything just to jump to the next level which is in the Garbage.. Because that's where you're going to end up with me.. In the Garbage can.. 

If you can't travel in the depth of the mind, to find out who we all are and why we're put here, and you don't really have a passion or a dream of making the world a better place.. You're a distraction.. You're like a plant that needs water.. Yet has no other purpose but to take up space in my apartment.. Sucking up energy, and never really putting back any.. That would be like the soil of a plant.. Really.. It just needs to be Watered.. 

Why are you in my life? That would be the next question, if you aren't really doing anything on your own, basically wanting to learn on your own about life.. Connections, relationships, dreams, aspirations, and yet you want me to be in your life.. For what reason?
I need to ask these questions. ..

Why do you want me to be in your LIFE? 
What for? How would you make my life better without taking something away from it?
What makes you worthy of being MY MAN? 
What do we have in Common? 
What besides my physical appearance is so appealing.. 
Oh I'm intelligent, so what does that do for you?
What wisdom do you have to bring to the table?
How do you view the World, and the people in it?
Don't just tell me that you're spiritual, but in reality you really have no spiritual views whatsoever you just want to answer the question.. 

Why are you wasting my time? Why are you wasting my life? 
You have nothing to offer me.. I'm not talking about money.. I'm talking about a point of view.. 
You don't study Science, and you have no IDEA what I'm talking about on my BLOG..
So basically you're a dumbass.. Who just wants something.. Someone.. To latch on so that you have someone.. and you really don't know what to do with them once you have them..
You view the world as give or take.. .Or you just take.. 
Thinking that you're giving, and assuming that the person that you're taking from, wants the same exact thing that you do.. Well guess what.. 
You fucked up without even knowing it.. 
Because when I'm done writing this blog,  I'm going to ask SLEEPING BEAUTY.. What he thinks of my BLOG!!!

AND after he gives me a bull shit answer, which he will... LOL I'm going to give him his walking papers.. EASY.. 
EASY COME EASY GO> 

I need to recognize a blind walker when I see one.. How can you walk through this life without wondering what it's about?

He still won't get it, but I will be nice and break it down for him.. Right now he thinks he's the man... But he's not because he doesn't even know who the fuck I am... Not really.. 

Even if I ask him, What type of person do you think I am?
Do you think I'm the type that would start a relationship based off of Sex?
Hell no, that's just not how it works.. 
I base a relationship off of thought patterns, Deep conversations, and differences of opinion.. If you don't have an opinion, then who are you a BLONDE?

I'm way too smart for these idiot mistakes of mine, I know better than that.. and my punishment.. 
ISOLATION.. 

I have to get him out of my system because he isn't right inside.. He's not really happy, and he's using me as a temporary satisfaction, until he gets himself together... 

Maybe I'm jumping the GUN.. But if I ask him about my BLOG, and for the Third time he asks me WHAT THE TITLE OF MY BLOG IS.. He's definitely FIRED!
You applied for the job, and you're going through the interview process.. 

I'm not having a relationship with someone who is a complete.. MORON.. 
Or thinks I am a complete MORON!! 

There's only but so many chances that you'll get, and I'll figure out on my own what type of relationship you're looking forward to getting.. NONE at all .. 

I really want to say to him. Hey I'm sure you're a nice guy, but you really have no idea what I like in a guy because you never asked me, matter of fact I don't even think we talk on the phone enough. I don't even think you can keep up with me intellectually.. 

Usually guys who are really good in bed.. Have ZERO relationship qualities, and they don't have any idea what a relationship truly requires.. That's scary, but it's true.. 
You've spent all of your life trying to master the bedroom, when all you had to do was educate yourself on what a woman thinks about..

Maybe that's too much work for a guy who doesn't really think much about anything.. but what he wants out of the situation.. Maybe he's selfish.. and only thinks about what he wants out of the situation.. 

Hey, I can't be too far off.. Especially when actions speak louder than words, and Words are the map to the final destination.. Nowhere..

See number one, I love who I am, Number two, I could care less about your reaction if I'm right.
Nine times out of ten, I am. If you know that I spend a lot of time, and energy on a blog that you've really NEVER seen, then what the hell are you here for?
What do you want from me?
You have no interest in what I'm interested in, otherwise you would have brought it up in at least one conversation.. 

I will bring it up again, one thing about me is that I think ahead.. 

The Psychology of Singing.

What Vocal Coaches Don't Teach.

There are so many vocal coaches that teach you breathing techniques, and ways to control the vocals. But the main thing they never discuss is "Confidence".

Of course a  vocal coach can't teach you how to have confidence.. Only YOU can right?

RIGHT! So the very thing that needs to be worked on is guess what? Your "Self Esteem".

What of you could sing better than Beyonce behind closed doors or if you're recording, but once someone asks you to sing,  you can't even find the words, or the song to sing so you ask.. 
"Uh so what do you want me to sing?" That's an example of lack of practice..

You have to be able to know enough songs and sing them all the time to be able to just sing a song off the top of your head..

Your Self Confidence is EVERYTHING you ARE!

It doesn't matter how good you are, if you're too scared to show it.. 

And that's the reason many great singers will never make it to be a star. 

How depressing is that? 

Stage fright is one thing, but what if there is no stage, or people, and you're even choking up while you're by yourself.. Are you afraid to even reveal your emotions to yourself? Because in order to really sing, you're going to have to let down your guard before you can take the next breath. You have to remind yourself that, you're just having a conversation poetically. 

This is a revelation of your soul, and you're going to have to do some soul searching to get there..

You're going to have to trick your mind.

Fool yourself.. Pretend that this is just a test, and that whatever happens will happen. These people don't know you anyway. You're going to have to release your anxiety in order to begin, singing. Because all of that tightness in your chest is STRESS.

I'll tell you how using these steps for example.

Step One.

Release all of the air that's trapped in your chest by Exhaling normally only. ence

Releasing outward is the reminder every time.

Step Two. 

Before taking a breath in, remind yourself that you are merely speaking, and not singing.

This will remind you to sing from the Diaphragm, instead of from your chest, and neck. 

Make the Ssss sound if needed. 

Step Three. 

As you take a breath in remember that the place you are singing from is the "Same Exact" place that you are speaking from.. That is a reminder for singers that have already established a singing voice, but have trouble finding the right place.

YOU MUST RECORD EVERYTHING!

You are wasting your time if you can't hear whyat not to do while singing. 
You will hear whether or not you're being nasal, or stuck in Chest voice.. or even if your words are being understood or not.. This is the only way that you can learn from yourself.. 
Because you're not born KNOWING everything, and singing is SELF TAUGHT, no matter where you go. 

A natural singer, has to teach oneself how to correct mistakes.. No one can teach you how to sing better that you can. You can howl all day, and you'll never get better if you're straining, and ignoring yourself while you strain.. Because it's NOT Sexy.. Maybe if you're Keith Sweat, and he's pushing it.. LOL! WOoowoww Wooow Wow Woooow! 

100% percent of great singers practice to gain confidence.

 If you talk in a fair volume that's confidence.. But if you're asked to sing in the same exact Volume, and you're like a whisper or you lose control.. this should tell you the truth. If you sang everyday like a pro, you would know exactly what to do to prevent the loss of control.. Because once your muscles strengthen, you'll sing better than you've ever sang in your life!  So surprise yourself.. 

The End.

 

Who told you that you can't be a Prophet?

Are you a Prophet?

First of all what is the definition of a prophet?

Definition of Prophet; 1. A person who speaks by divine inspiration or as the interpreter through whom the will of a god is expressed.

2. A person gifted with profound moral insight and exceptional powers of expression.

3. A predictor; a soothsayer.

4. The chief spokesperson of a movement or cause.

This is my movement, and this is my cause. 

I feel like I am a person who is gifted with a profound Moral insight.

I am expressing my exceptional powers through my own individual expression.

I am in the position that I am in, because of my circumstances. But that doesn't mean that I have to

limit myself. I have limited myself on many occasions, because I am not perfect. I'm still weak in the flesh in this physical body. 

We are all prophets. We all have a say on what, and how we perceive the world as it is. Realizing our own physical limitations. You have to surround yourself with like minded individuals who can feed off your ideas in order to grow, and that's the way of life!

We are merely stars born in physical bodies.. Put here to experience this world, and to make our mark.. 

We all have a divine talent. and it is up to us whether we choose to share this talent with the world or remain a secret. 

If we rely on negative resources or others that don't even believe in their own craft, than what are we asking of them? To miraculously answer questions that only you can answer?

You have the answers to all of your questions.. 

The Jesus Question.

See this blows me..See when someone asks me "Have you found Jesus?" or Did you accept him as your personal lord and savior? The question I ask is.. Have you seen Jesus? Have you even heard his voice in your head, asking you to ask him to be your Lord and Savior.. Or did someone.. A human being tell you that, that was what we are all supposed to do? 

Can you even explain what finding Jesus actually means, moreover feels like, looks like.. or the steps to take to find him? Is there even a Map to get there.. are there Instructions to find him? 

This really frustrates me inside, because it takes away from our divine being. I look them in the eyes to see if they really believe what they are asking me. Is Jesus a white dude with long hair? Why does he have to be white? Why can't he have a little color? Why would you put everything you've got into someone who shares nothing in common with the WORLD? The world is colorful.. Jesus should have had a mixture of some color in him don't you think? I think so, and that's the reason he was sacrificed.. Not because of our SINS.. Because I didn't play a part in his sacrifice.. Maybe my white ancestors, because I really don't think I'm a purebred African American in the United States.. Jesus was Sacrificed for the same reason Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, and the rest of our colorful leaders were Sacrificed. Because, they wanted all of us to Unite, and they had too much power..Like Jesus did...and see Jesus had too much power, and that's the reason why he was sacrificed..AKA Murdered at the stake.. The End 

What about you?

How about this question, have you found yourself? Because we were all born here without instructions on how to succeed in whatever.. What about the relationship you have with you.. Aren't you special enough to be discovered over and over again.. To discover that you are the greatest to yourself, and that nothing else really matters? I say this because you are alone. In being alone there shouldn't be loneliness.. Loneliness, is leaving yourself alone.. Boredom  is ridiculous.. I say this because the time that you're spending twiddling your thumbs is the time you should be spending on writing down your thoughts.. Creating projects that are made for only you to attend to, and you wonder why you're so unsure of yourself.. because you're in your cell phone trying to figure out what everyone else is doing.. Because you can't be creative enough to find something to do on your own?

That's crazy.. Boredom is loss of Sanity.. 

You've now become the definition of a sociopathic problem.. Because if you're bored, you're boring, and if you're boring to others because of your inability to create.. You have to start from scratch all over again and start with yourself all over again, because over time everyone will leave you be.. and Jesus can't save you.. You have to save you... 

I never get bored anymore, I did as a child, because my mind was limited, and I had no idea what I was capable of.. and then as I got older I realised that there is so much more in this world through imagination. 

I call this one of the Einstein Theories because this is the very power everyone is born with.. 

If you don't have imagination then how do you thrive.. Have you found Imagination? That should be the question!

I've been put in situations in which I never understood, I've been told everything happens for a reason.. and yes everything happens for a reason.. My problem in life is that I never listened to anyone.. I had to find out for myself whether or not I was put in a situation that was good or bad.. But see read my words; I never Listened to anyone.. That means I didn't even follow my gut instinct.. Which was to stop whatever I was engaging in.. Stupidity.. I would say.. Naivety? Definitely! I payed the price.. I'll tell you more about my life in another post but my life is quite interesting.. Everyone should write about their lives.. 

We are merely what we leave behind! It doesn't matter when you start, because the stories never end! They shouldn't be boring because you're talking about all the best parts.. I would be VERY VERY Daring to talk about my life truthfully.. Because man... I would shock the world.. and possibly damage my reputation as a good girl.. LMFAO!

Who's good? Nobody! Everybody lies, and everybody told hundreds if hopefully not thousands of deep dark secrets that should never be told!!! Keep them to yourself,.. I've realised in this World that LIES protect you.. and the truth does not set you free.. The world cannot except the Truth, our very sanity would be at stake.. and you wonder why the Government hides so much information from us.. to keep us all from freaking out, and completely losing our minds.. 

I know I'm way off subject, but I'm still speaking my truth.. This is all I need.. 

What Powers Do We Have?

The Powers we have.

Did God give us Powers? Do you often feel like you have a hidden gift that no one else has? All we have is our Senses.. What about these unpredictable emotions? Or are they predictable? Why are they here?.. What about our mind power?
What are these tools for? I ask this because most of the time we're really not using these powers because we're doing the same thing over and over again day in and day out and we're basically being driven insane..

We're not made for this life.. We aren't made to do that same thing over, and over again.. We're created to create.. I'm not just talking about making babies, but to invent things.. Talk about new inventions.. Make more to life that meets the eye, because this is not the way you're supposed to live life!!

We have our emotions.. to indicate whether or not a person is good or bad to have around you.. and it's real.. Why even think that our emotions aren't tools for anything other than figuring something out that we can't use our five other senses  to figure out.. 

Can we smell fear? But we can feel Fear.. Most of the time we are caught off guard by paying too much attention to everyone else when in fact we should be paying attention to us.. I mean the more attention you give to everyone else the more you ignore your own emotions which is that worst thing you could ever do in life.. 

Ignoring your own feelings, can cause you to forget that you have to use them to live.

Your thoughts and feelings matter.

Our thoughts and feelings are the only power we have!

God made us to Live Long Enough.

We Live Long Enough.

Why would God put us in these vessels to live, breath, feel, and touch? To experience life. Like experience class. Life is a blessing to us. But why is life such a blessing? Most of us can't really answer this question. Why do we feel blessed to live in such a difficult state, and want to live forever with this responsibility? 

 We are but a walking breathing bleeding plant. Our lives are short compared to the age of the Universe. We fear death because most of us are taught a belief that most of us can't believe. Because in life seeing is believing. We can only rely on science to give us the answers we need to know about our lives. But not even scientists have all of the answers to life. 

God made us to live long enough to experience what life is, but we are but stars living inside a Universe where Stars are giving Birth to in a living vessel. 

Who remembers being created? All we know is that we are here somehow.. Now that we're Adults, we're lost as to why we were put here in the first place with so much going on just to Sustain life.. So many Obstacles.. 

Are we put on Earth to enslave ourselves, and others? With so much pain and suffering.. This isn't the End of life.. 

This is just an experience of life in between moving on to becoming a part of everything in this World. What a relief it is to finally be free of all the nonsense.. All of the emotions.. and Just be.. 
Everyone wishes to be free.. But everyday we don't wake up in freedom, we have to eat, we have to work, we have to cleanse ourselves.. We have to be accepted.. 

It's almost as if we are never free. What is freedom? Freedom doesn't exist. As long as you're a living breathing human being you will never be free. 

God made us to live long enough, before our energies return to where we came from.. and no one can put it into words.. No one must really know this.. 
We would never look at life the same again.. Everyone would be fearless.. I can't say that the World would be a better place.. but the people would definitely have a sense of freedom within the Soul, knowing that it will be okay.. and, that the next place that we go will be FAR greater.. and will be a place that can't even be imagined.. 

Why are people so ANGRY?

There are so many Angry Scared people.

I know you're like, how can someone be angry and scared at the same damn time?

Angry at the fact that they're scared to live out their dreams. Angry at the the fact that they're afraid of the very thing they really want to do. They can't live with themselves, or be by themselves because they're trapped in their own limitations of thought. 

See, to everyone else they want to be seen as one character, one that's high in Self Esteem, and never a flaw. These people I really can't stand, mainly because they're the ones who "Think" they know who you are as a person. They give speeches as if they're already successful, when in reality they're still struggling. They don't like when someone else points out a flaw that they'll never see, or refuse to see. 

This has me thinking, how could you ever be close to anyone in life, when you're acting like you know everything, and everyone? You're not God.. and that's why God made us the way that he did. Otherwise humans would take advantage of that all the time.. Mind reading..

What were you put on Earth to do?

What were you put here for?

I've had so many ideas, and they have gone down the drain because I asked a second opinion from someone who isn't even successful. Then, I realized that my opinion was the only one that counted. We are all individuals, but nobody shares the exact same dream. So when you're asking someone else what they think should you really take into consideration that their opinion really does not matter.

Your thoughts are your own, and your ideas are originated from your own imagination, so why would you dare put that idea into someone elses hands. In the hands of another spirit another Star. You were put here to change the world, and it takes alot. It takes more than one person to change the world, so you have to go out and find others like yourself, and build a group of people like yourself to create something that hasn't been done before.. and that take courage. 

So what you were born to do will take more the courage, but power to do so.. Who has the power to do what they were put on Earth to do? YOU.

Once Upon a Time Peace Happened. (Story)

Once Upon a Time.

Once Upon a time, everyone in the Entire Planet took a Pause. The People Came out of their houses, and left their Jobs to come outside. As if by remote control. They all looked at each other in surprise, and then they looked to the sky. Everyone prayed for Peace.. The energy from the prayer was so overwhelming that the Earth shook, the wind blew. A loud deafening Boom filled the air. As everyone stood paralyzed with their eyes wide open.. Then everything stopped. 

The people were wiped of their horrible Memories, negative emotions. Feeling as if they were robbed of something.. Everyone hugged each other.. Everyone Cried.  Everyone of every color. 

No one cared about Race, and all religion was forgotten. There was Love, and nothing more. 

No one Murdered ever again, no one lied, everyone was open and honest. The World, and the Universe had shifted to the next Dimension. Color Blind. 

Who's Raising Your Child, is it the School System?

Who is Raising YOUR Child?

I'm wondering if most Parents let the School System Raise their Child.. 

Everyone knows that a child is one way at home, and another way when they 

come home to you. We really have to remember that!  When you are talking 

to your child at home about behaving, and misbehaving.. It's not the same language.. 

At home Education is the BEST Education for your  child. Because you're telling it like it is, and what really happens in the real world.. Without them suffering in school, learning what the birds, and the Bees are from fairy tales that their classmates have prepared for them. 

Your Child will listen to you, clearly learning all of your good habits, and bad Habits. But it's up to you, whether or not you want to admit to your child, that you're not perfect... Who are they going to follow? YOU that Parent, so you shouldn't be surprised if the School is calling you, talking about your child talking back, cursing in class, and being loud. 

What is your response? 

Better yet if you don't spend any time with your child, or even have a conversation with him/or her.. Without it being a threat.. What do you expect the child to do when you're away?

Cry for attention in the worst way possible... Because when they get home their Mom or Dad is either at work... Or their going home to Grandma or Grandpa.. Which isn't normal.. 

You want your Mom  to show up for Mother Daughter Gatherings, and Your Dad to show up at the games.. Not someone who's too old to even throw a damn ball..

It would be easier to say... Damn these are some ignorant ass Ghetto Kids.. 

But it's better to say.. These Parents out here are THE MOST Irresponsible, Hot messes I have EVER SEEN!!

Self Esteem

Self Esteem.. What is it really? 

     
Everybody thinks that they have the right definition in their minds. On top of that, most adults don't have the proper education to teach their children about what Self Esteem REALLY is..

Self Esteem is knowledge of self, a relationship with one's self.. 
Alone by yourself without the opinions of anyone else in the World. 
To most it might sound Daunting, but if you don't have a relationship with 
yourself, then how else would you be able to
 measure the amount of Self Esteem you really have?

The answer is Simple, but it's been a Taboo since the beginning of time. 
Do you remember as child hearing from other Elementary classmates, or neighborhood
kids joning playfully saying.. "If you talk to yourself you're crazy!" Then these uneducated kids want to tell us "If we talk to ourselves out loud, and then answer out loud you're crazy" Maybe so
If you're having outbursts. See when you're 12 and 13 years old, you're  trying to figure out where your place is in this world.  Those exact rules are broken.. Eventually.

Self Esteem is..

"It's your protection from you, by you. A Spiritual gift of  a unconditional love for yourself, no matter what happens to you. It's Armor for the Soul."  -Bilqiys Greene

Now, How do you get to know your SELF?

This didn't come easy to me at 12 years old. This was the age where I was discovering what my good habits were, and my bad habits. But, I was still too young to fully understand what getting to know myself really was. I was given a Journal. 

This Journal basically saved my life over and over and over again. Because I had the chance to talk to myself, ask myself questions, and answer them. Without feeling guilty, I was writing to me. 

I had the best conversations with myself without even speaking a word out loud. 

This was the building block on how I gained a relationship with myself. 

You constantly build yourself up over, and over again. Because once you understand that in this world you will always run into someone who doesn't like you or your ideas, just because you're YOU. 

Strong Self Esteem is Your Protection From Predators

How well do you know yourself, are you your own best friend? The answer is yes.. Nobody wants to go on through life alone. Self Esteem is your Spirit guide to help you along the way through life, when things get crazy.

What Self Esteem Really is.

Who taught you about Self Esteem Growing up?

No one taught me about Self Esteem,

 I had to learn the hard way by getting to know myself. 

I had to protect myself from harm, Because where there was no one

and I was backed up against the wall to fend for myself.

Self Esteem is your protection from manipulative, toxic Sociopaths.

People who feed on your failure by acting as of they're your friend. 

Only to later on use the painful stories that you have told them, 

against you as ammunition to bring you down. 

I've learned that S. E. is that little voice in my head telling me what I am, and what I'm not.

My intuition plays a part in that. My gut feeling plays a part in protecting me. 

Whenever I ignore that gut feeling, something always goes wrong. 

In my eyes, I'm turning against myself as my only best friend.